The struggles of motherhood

I have found that balancing it all has been hard; there was a time when I enjoyed being a mom, and when I look back, it was when I didn’t have to worry about being head of the household; I could worry about being a good Mom. I can’t say I didn’t have struggles with my mental health because I did, but it was different. During that time, I struggled with my marriage and what that looked like for my life then. Now, this is a different kind of struggle, and I’m not saying this for any pity at all. I’m just learning how to navigate the different territories.

So I’m going to write out a plan to help myself get back to where I was; writing out a plan works better for me than just trying to piece it all together. Writing, for me, is therapy and helps me develop a plan.

1. Finding time to read and pray every day. I did an assessment at church, which showed that I need quiet time with God daily. In our society, we must learn where to put time for God each day. We get so busy with our everyday lives that we don’t slow down to even think about God and meditate on him. It is also good for our kids to learn to settle down and rest on God and his goodness.
2. Just meditating each day, taking the time to meditate, read, and do yoga. Just taking some quiet time. I hate the business of life. I hate all the go, go, go. My dream is to live in an RV and minimalize my bills and enjoy the world God gave us. We are always looking for more and more. It leaves us so unhappy all the time. I’m learning to want less in life. I want happiness and my kids. I don’t need to gain the whole world.
3. Spending more time with my kids, enjoying them being little. We get so caught up in life and lose so much, spending less time on social media and the things that don't matter. Enjoying the life that God gave us. Loving the experience of life and being content with where we are and what we have.

Writing this down has helped me put into perspective what is important and what matters in life. I will keep fighting for the simple in life. I don't need the whole world. I need adventures with my kids, loving the simple moments and taking it all in. It is a fast ride; before I know it, I will be old, and they will be grown, and I will have missed it all.